well its been a little while since i have last posted... i am pretty busy working, paying bills, trying to live life & enjoy it in peace...


ever day i am afraid to look in the mail box because EVER DAY i get a letter stating i owe money to this or that, school, loans, banks, car payments, phone bills. blah blah, i mean its obvious that i can only own these things if i pay for them, but its terrible when you have a shit tay job. i am looking to work some where else. they are opening a new petco near my house and are looking for a groomer assistant, which i think i would enjoy doing. i mean i love animals. taking care of them...even the nasty poo.
speaking of animals.. my kitty lilly is so special. i love her. she is getting bigger. shes about 12 weeks now.

pictures.


this was today.













yeah so today i had off, i went shopping with my best friend leanne. i drove us to west chester to a cute little hippie shop i love to go to called MOONFLOWER. very cool. awesome clothes bags candles pipes bongs posters tapestries and all kinds of other nick nacks and things.

after we were in there for a while ( i bought my self a new bag :) and a few shirts (long sleeve for winter) we walked around the small town in and out of stores. after that we got back in my car and started driving back home.. jamming as loud as my car could play, some grateful dead :) of course. stopped at marshalls... to pick up some cheep jeans, and t-shirts.

I am trying to save up some extra cash to get myself a nice camera. I am so sad that my old one is smashed. i love taking pictures. blaaahh. well lilly is now trying to attach my computer.

i think its time for my nightly bong smoke & green tea time. haha i am so corny.

oh yeah! jason, my love. is in michigan right now, had court today, for getting busted at rothbury this july. SUPER LAME. but yeah he has 6 months of probation. :( he had to leave sunday morning at 4am, to be able to make it up there today for court. 12 hour drive!!!! i mean i totally enjoyed driving there and back for rothbury, i just love road trips anywhere. but he had to go back and fourth 6 times. and believe me 12 hour ride is tough. i mean we have driving farther to get to florida in march but having to drive all the way there just to go to court for 20 minutes... thats terrible. anyways so im trying to stay positive for him so when he gets back it wont be so hard (since we both very much enjoy maryjane.) and i will have to stop doing it around him because i know it will be tough.

well yeah speaking of mary jane.........i have a fresh bag of some good headies. i feel guilty still smoking while hes away but i just enjoy it so much. and i need to relaxxxxxxxx. chilll out, since i have work early in the morning.

peace & love.

"CAUSE I DONT KNOW, WHO I AM, WHO I AM WITH OUT YOU....ALL I KNOW IS THAT I SHOULD."

I just felt like taking a break from playing my guitar... heres a recent picture that my friend lisa sent me from a party we were at last weekend. .. its me and some of my good friends.




left to right...
gage (in the dead tie dye) ryan (my best guy friend, in the tie dye his girl lisa made) andy (another best guy friend with a CUP on his face.) ME.. and chris another good friend.

Pretty much been working all the time lately, taking care of my lil baby lilly. (shes a wild thing and i love her)
I am so broke it is sad. I have money in the bank, but all of it i owe to car payments insurance (car & health) a couple thousands i owe to the bank (from a loan i took out to go to school) phone bill..the list goes on and on and on and on. i am behind on a lot of crap that i feel like ill never catch up and be able to MOVE. But i just try to be positive and just live each day one day at a time...

my mom is away for the week, my grand father took her on a cruse to Canada !! i am super jealous.
but its the first time she has gone on a vacation since i was in 2nd grade... which was 12 years ago. being a single mom is so hard, i have a lot of respect for her, and i love my mom to death, even though we fight a lot, i still love her.
so today i worked all day on a sunday.. bummer. from 7a to 3p now i am home watching my brother while my sister works all night.

I am just about to pack up my bong and then continue to jam on the guitar. ;) so thats all for now... ill catch up with some real serious thoughts later, most likely when im HiGH :).. i think and feel best when i am free.


peace

i feel like i did something bad last night....i woke up today still drunk from last night.

working today, 11-6:30. jason and the boys went camping for the night, so tonight is ladies night ;) havent had one of those in a while, and i know its going to be a good time....

i just showered got to get dress and do my morning toke before work :)


peace

well i was woken up by my baby girl lilly at 5 am this morning. she was wired and ready to play..jumping on my head, pulling at my long braids, hah shes crazy but i love her. as i type she is trying to stop my fingers from typing by jumping on the keyboard and pushing my hands with her head? she so silly.











...yeah i pretty much look like crap in these pictures since i havent even got out of bed yet... but lilly is so cute <3.

so yeah today i am working all day! boooooo. 7a-4p. tiger lilly will have the whole day to herself to explore. hopefully she will be able to find her way to the liter box so mama doesnt come home to any surprises under the bed.

well now its 6:07a, i am going to go make some coffee, take a toke, grap something to eat and get ready for work. hope everyone has a happy & peaceful day.

peace & love.

jULiE

a friend of mine was giving away free kitties!!! and since my last babygirl, lucy, was ran over by some asshole... I thought it was time to get a new one, since after lucy died i was terribly upset that i couldnt get another cat...but its been over a year now and since she has them i wanted one!

i wanted to name her magnolia<3.. but my ma who also is an animal lover ( we already have a dog, a few cats, a rabbit..) begged me to let her name the kitty because she has never gotten to name any animals we had.

SO SHE NAMED HER TIGER LILLY, OR lilly for short.<3 i love her.

good morning, its 6:45am, and i am about to leave for work. been up since 6 this morning, and i feel great? I fell alseep pretty early last night, which is unusual. But I am just finishing up my coffee then ill be out the door.

I am working 7-4 today, hopefully it will go by quick. I need to find another JOB!!!! i dont know how many times i will tell myself that before i actually find one. TODAY I am going to try and find a better place to work. i hope.

well i better go before i am late. PEACE

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HOME FROM THE BEACH.

ahh, my very short vaction was wonderful. I really needed it; to be away from work and all the negitive vibes ;). Jason has an awesome birthday, (he turned 22 on aug 15.) We chilled on the beach, high :). drank all night, danced, skated, layed out, relaxed, read, played our guitars...had a great time!

Since my camera is broken, I was unable to get any pictures, boo. but hopefully ill save up and by myself a real nice one. because i love taking picture and now that i do not have one i feel lost. haha

so i got jason a whicked long board. he was very happy. (well i took him to a sick skate store and he picked it out, but still i rather do that only becaue i wouldnt want to give him one he didnt like.)

so anyways after we got his long board, i grabbed mine and we skated for like 5 hours all in the night, it was so much fun.

_____well overall the trip was awesome. Bummed i have to go back to work tomorrow, but i am going to begin looking for another job, because i can no long take working there. blaaah, wish me luck, i hope i can find another JOB!


i want to end this on a good note, so...
I am about to make myself a real nice dinner, i am home alone since my mother sister brother and my sister friend lisa went to the beach for the night i have the whole house to myself. PEACE AT LAST. that makes me happy.

well i got approved for health insurence!! yippie! haha

work was lame today. nothing much new.

one more shift then i LEAVE FOR THE BEACH!!!!!!!! :) yay.

jason about to drop me off a bag of some NICE. cant wait to rippp that bong.
i have been low for like a week now, since i have been BROKE. but finally i get paid tomorrow and my boy who loves me bought me a bag til i get paid,. haha yeah, sweet.

i am baby sitting my bro tonight, i am trying to think of something fun we can do besides sitting in all night.


well thats all for now, i will most likely write again since i will MOST LIKELY not have anything else to do.

PEAAAAAAACE

My day off from work! <3 just lovely. I am so sweaty right now, I just got home from a skate ses. with my boy jason and my brother eddie. IT was a lot of fun, I bought myself a long board, which i love, pretty much surfing the asphalt. haha, and today its about 90 degrees so its like HELL outside but the work out was nice.

For the rest of my day, i plan on relaxing, toke a little, shower, and just chill.

I am really looking forward to this weekend!! Saturday is Jason's 22nd birthday, and his mother got us a hotel room for the entire weekend until monday! We are staying at the Princess Royal Hotel, in Ocean City MD. The only bummer is that the entire hotel is SMOKE FREE?!??!????! but thats no big deal jason and I will deal, since the hotel in on the beach front we can just blaze & smoke cigs there. haha but besides that I AM SO EXCiTED. cant wait to lay out, maybe do some surfing, skate, get wasted, party and spend a lot of time together, (ALONE) ;)

So yeah, we are leaving either friday night or really early Saturday morning, its about a three hour drive from here, but thats nothing compared to driving to Florida or driving to Michigan, each were about 12 hours. hahaha.

hmm, well nothing else is new. I have work tomorrow 7a-4p, friday 10a-6:30p, then im FREEEEEEE, for the weekend. yiiippieee.

well now my mother is bugging me to look up health insurance, which i do not have i guess i will check out some plans.

mUCH LOVE & PEAAAAACE.

JULiE.

p.s. on of my favorite quotes..."bombing for peace, is like FUCKING FOR ViRGiNiTY."

well I guess I havent posted in a few days. as always nothing new in my life. besides me being back home for the time being...

I just got off of work about 30 mins ago, sundays are THE WORST. the day of rest for everyone besides me...I have to be up at 6am. and I am totally BEAT since Jason and I decided last minute to ride up to the mountains for the night.

BUUUTT That was a fun trip! I wish I had a camera to show you the beautiful area we were in but any ways, we left at 6:45ish friday night since I had to work until 6:30p. It was about an hour and a half drive from My house to Mt Pocono. Drove up to my friend Chris's house and a good group of my close friends where already there ready to party, so we partied allllllll night, so much fun, shots of jack daniels, land shark beers, bottles of wine, and bowls and bowls of nice bud. haha We all got RE TAR TED. lit off some fire works. it was wild. Jason and I stayed as late as we could which was 9pm Saturday night since I had work at 7am sunday booooo.

I LOVE THE MOUNTAiNS, i for sure want to live in a wooded mountainside instead of the beach. dont get me wrong i LOVE THE BEACH but I like the woods. I am for sure a Mountain Girl.

so anyways that was a lot of fun.

Nothing else really going on I am about to shower, and take a toke of some bud I just got. I dont have work tomorrow so I can finally relax<3<3<3. I hope everyone is having a groovy sunday


much love

Today is Monday! Which oddly makes me happy because it is my day off! So, I am still living at Jason's house, which I love. I mean it was about time for me to move out anyways, besides the whole taking care of my younger brother, but I just did not want to move out the way I did, only so I could have gotten all of my things, peacefully.

Anyways, Jason and I have been planning on moving out west, however, we both deicied that we would like to take a trip up to Canada and see if we would rather live there. Canada is a beautiful country, that also provides free health care, something Jason and I do not have. I am really excited to begin to plan our trip out. But we don't plan on going for a few months just so we can have enough money. Plus I want to research different areas that I would conceder living so that way I am ready.

...Work as usually is lame. I am at the point where I am going to lose my mind. So yes today is my day off, I would tipically five to six days a week. But for some reason, my boss or my other employees feel that they need to call me everyday I am off at 8 in the morning to ask if I can come work! For example, Saturday was my only day off last week. I worked Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and had off Saturday. So Saturday was the first day last week that I could actually sleep in passed 6 am!! BUT my fucking asshole employee Antoinette calls me at 8am three times. Like after the first time she called and I didnt pick up what made her think that I would wake up and answer the two next times she called. She left me three voicemail and texted me "CALL ME ITS IMPORTANT I GOT TO ASK YOU SOMETHING" well I never called her back because I KNEW all she wanted to ask me was if I could come in and work her for. Which I mean I could have but I really needed my day off to get work done, on my car, and other things I had to take care of.

So then I get a text from my sister, Karen, who was working that day, says to call in because Antoinette told her she had something SUPER IMPORTANT to tell me blah blah, so I finally call, still laying in bed. .and she likes can you please come in and work today, and I told her no because I didnt have my car, since Jason was planning on working on it that day, and she keeps begging me telling me she can give me a ride there and back, and I am like COME ONE NOW, ITS MY ONLY DAY OFF THIS WEEK, I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF MY CAR AND STUFF. I told her the reason I called was to tell her never to call me again on my day off at 8 am because I WILL NOT work for you.

For some reason these people think they can take advantage of me just because most of the time when people ask me I will cover them, only because most of the time they ask me in advance and because I could always use the extra money.

and then today, my boss calls me at 8 in the morning. Again on my ONLY DAY OFF THIS COMING WEEK. I even worked yesterday which was sunday. And I have to work everyday the rest of the week. So today I wanted to take care of my car and pay some bills and rest catch up on my sleep. But no I woken up again by calls and voice mails and text messages all because my boss is an asshole.

whoa sorry, that was a lot of venting. I just really need a new job!! blah. I am actually about to start looking right now..
Well I am going to go, I could use a cigarette right about now.

much love & peace

well good morning.

I just woke up, and got a shower. I am feeling fresh.

Well so the last few days I have been living at my boyfriend, Jason's house, because my mother once again "kicked me out." I mean this is not the first time this has happened. My mother and I are too much a like. (strong headed, and very opinionated women.) so we butt heads a lot. I am 20 years old, and pretty much ready to live on my own. The only reason I still live (lived) at my house was because My mom is a single parent who raise myself, my sister who is 19, and my youngest brother who is 11, all by herself. She worked the nightshifts as a nurse in the nursery so I help her with my brother, watch him, fed him, etc. While she works.
But typical mother daughter... we got into another fight and she asked me to leave. I mean I am not sad at all by it only because I WANT TO LIVE ON MY OWN. I just haven't moved out because of my brother.

So anyways, I am staying with Jason. I love living with him, it just sucks right now since when my mother and i got into a fight i stormed out with out any belongings. I only have the clothes I was wearing when I left. Which isnt a huge deal, Jason has two sisters that I can borrow clothes from until I get a chance to go back to my house and grab a bag of clothes.

...so yeah, today I am working 12 to 4. a short shift. not so bad. I really need to be working more hours, since I basically have no money to my name. Thank GOD tomorrow is PAY DAY... I hate getting paid every two weeks, I pay all my bills and such with the one pay check then im pretty much not trying to spend to much on stupid things since it would be another two weeks before i get another paycheck. blah i cant stand that i always end up talking about work here. haha.

But on a good note, Jason and I are starting are own business. Buying gold. you would be surprise to see how many people can make a living off this. you just need to know where to go. so im trying to pick up extra shifts so i can invest in our new business. hopefully it will go as planned so then I wouldnt have to work at this answering service anymore.

well its 11:10a. and i probably should get ready since i have to leave in about 20 or so minutes to get to work on time. much love & pEACE

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working today..12 to 5. i was suppose to just work til 4 but my friend needed me to cover an hour for her. since i need the hours i am. .. i am hoping that work goes by FAST because my wonderful boyfriend bought me new paints! :) eKKK. i cant wait to start painting with them! haha, im such a nerd.

well i finished cleaning out my room. gave about 5 bags to the needy, and then after all that, my boyfriend jason, and my good friends lisa and ryan drove down to Oaks, to the "dam" to go swim in the river which was so much fun! slid down a slide made of smooth rocks. i wish i had a digital camera to show pictures, because this place is beautiful but i broke it at the rothbury festival and never got a new one. :-\.. anyways, tonight i think we are going to BBQ and down some beers. and of course blaze :). I have work tomorrow but instead of work at 6am i am working at 12. so at least i can party a little tonight, and sleep in for work :). yay. hmmm nothing else new. I am ready for a SHOWER since i smell like river water. hah

P E A C E && L O V E

good morning! today on my day off i am cleaning OUT my entire room. i have so much JUNK, good clothes, old toys, books, that i have no use for anymore and i feel that others would benift from them more than i. so i am going to give everything away. to the purple heart. or any place that will take the stuff for free, and give it to people who need it. :) and its not only benifiting others but myself too because having a junked up room drives me crazy. i need an organized room. so yes i am about to head up to my room and get started. hope everyone has a relaxing monday<3.

peace & love

my lover, jason, just left. im high as a kite :) just ripppped my other love, BONG. and since my sister is not home i stole her mAC. -- im too broke to buy one myself. so here i am right now.. being a loon.





dont ask. not sure why i am wearing my shades inside the house, at 1am. ? hAH.




"but im just a girl, cant you just take a look at me & tell. that i live, honey, & i breathe for you. dont you know i do...yeah."


here is a picture , of a picture of my boyfriend and i, when we road tripped back to FLORiDA, this pass march (for spring break) -- i have family that still lives there... but maaann, it was a very fun road trip. AND yes we are both white as hell. since we live in PA and since winter just ended, we looked like ghost. but its cool... jason cut his beard now, but i always have loved this picture for some reason.
we also look really fat / stretched out, but we are not. haha i guess it looks retarted since i took a picture, of a picture. hahaha. that makes me laugh.

TOMORROW I HAVE OFF :) yiipppieeeeeeeee hippppieee.<3.


..more pictures cause i was bored. (by the way SOMEONE TELL ME HOW TO DO THOSE "CUTS".. i feel stupid but i do not know how to do them. ) :-\


im to high.


(i wanted to see how long my hair was.) haha


trippin colors.


well thats all for now i suppose. i am still WiDE AWAKE. but i feel like reading my book, so im out of here.

much love && PEACE

jULiE.